I’ve been thinking about this for about two weeks now, about what exactly I wanted to do, if I would actually make the time to do it, and I’ve finally decided that, yes, I am. Initially, I started this silly little site something like 5 years ago, or so, moved it from some free space to actually paying for server space, but then never actually did anything with it, really. I wrote about 72 posts, there was nothing really cohesive about them, mostly just links to stupid articles and my thoughts about them. Admittedly, it was pretty lame. No one cared, least of all me. Despite that, I continued paying for my server space and just let it sit here, unused.
I think it’s time to change that.
The question is, what exactly do I want to do? That’s what I’ve been mulling over for the past two weeks. Trying to figure out a direction for the future. What I’ve basically been thinking about doing is actually just turning this into an online journal. I have a lot of thoughts that run through my head all day long, go through my share of depressive bouts, and most of the time feel like I have no one to talk to about them. Sure, I know that I really do, but I’ve always been the type of person who will listen to anyone else’s problems but doesn’t want to burden anyone with my own.
Does this mean that I’m going to turn this into the literary equivalent of a Morrissey song? Of course not, but my intention is to just write about my day, boring as it is, and what I’m thinking, and whatever else comes to mind. I have no plans on posting links. I have no plans for cute and clever titles. I don’t even plan on trying to be funny, most people don’t even get my humor, anyway.
My intention is to write something, even it is just a couple of sentences, daily. There’s always something up there, so why not just commit it to paper, as it were. So, basically, anyone who cares to, can come and read what’s on my mind.
Do I think that anyone will actually want to read what I have to say? Not really. To be honest, it doesn’t matter if anyone does. This isn’t for you, it’s for me, and my attempts to find catharsis.
I’ve hidden all of the old posts, I didn’t want to delete them, no matter how bad I think they are, and have decided to start over with an entirely clean slate. Let’s see just how deep the rabbit hole goes.